The celebration of the new year was fraught with feelings and deep thoughts. I alternated between extremely blue and manically high during the festivities on Monday night and I'm really glad that I'm not going to be drinking like that this coming year.
I don't like how I am when I drink and I don't like being sad while surrounded by friends. I can only think of one response to my irrational sadness at the party, "steady losing means you ain't using what you really think is right." (John Prine!)
I think some deep reflection is in order. Am I doing what makes me happy? How can I be better in the coming year? What do I want?
Had some troubling news from a family member after the new year as well, and that brings me to adding another resolution:
-Be more diligent about being there for the people that need me.
Back to the purpose of the blog (fitness to fight depression, for those of you who don't remember), I am looking forward to a new routine now that I've sobered up. Tonight is year-start measurements, research, and upper body work. I'll let you know if I'm sore tomorrow!
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