Insulation

What a long weekend. A trip up North to my Mum's home with friends and a birthday celebration weekend led to me being utterly exhausted this morning. 

I spent the weekend eating way too much of all the wrong things and slamming Cokes and beer. I get stressed out about entertaining people when I host parties, and I also get stressed out about going away for the weekend, so overall the last few days have seen me eating poorly, sleeping poorly, and getting too worked up about things. 

I also had so many people I wanted to be able to see, from my Mum and brother, to my friends who came with me, to my aunt and uncle to my long lost, oldest dearest friend. Sadly, I couldn't make it work despite "A" patiently driving me around to all of the visiting destinations on my list. 

We got back into town around 8 last night, and had some Thai food and watched a movie before bed. I was too anxious to sleep though, and very worried about the week ahead. This week I've got extra duties to handle at the lab since we lost a coworker and since I've really got to get my asbestos training up to scratch.

Fortunately, even though I was too tired and puny to CrossFit this morning, I've got Friday off work and will be heading to the box with "A" so he can see what it's all about. I don't feel bad about missing this morning though, since I'll still be getting my four days this week, before we head up North again to "A"s cottage next weekend.

I love summer, but all this travel is kinda stressful. I haven't been home since Thursday. Soon I'm going to be heading to Costa Rica for school too, and I can already feel myself getting stressed about that.

So much stress in my life. Too much for summer time, and wayyyy too much for someone who is trying to shed some extra fluff around the middle. I can feel my upset nature hoarding fat and illness inside my body. In fact, this morning I ate probably more than a pound of cold Thai food leftovers. I wasn't even hungry. I just felt like I needed to. I'm insulating my stress and fear with food. I'm so afraid.